Parenting. Being A Father. Having A Kid. Etc.

I am not a parent. I do not have a partner at the moment and therefore there are no plans of having a kid, and therefore, I am not a father. I have never had a kid. Let me just get this out of the way so I don't sound like some deadbeat, or something.

I don't think, no, I know I cannot envision a world where me and a child (my child) co-exist. I can't even take care of a dog, and I proved that in 2013. I simply cannot care for another life on this Earth. The stress of having a dog got to me so much, that I was literally going insane. Having a child would be 1,000x's greater (stress-wise). I purposely avoid having partners at my age (35) because they would want to have a kid. Maybe when I turn 40 I can settle down with another 40-something-year-old woman, and we can have a kid-less life traveling or something. I don't know, but having a child in this world freaks me right the fuck out to the point where I wanna die. This is the truth.

I have always been this way. No set of events, or personal philosophies lead me to this conclusion (that I will never have a kid). Simply as a very young child I always saw myself as the type of person who likes to explore the world, likes to be able to change their (my) life on a dime, and reinvent himself (me) at the drop of a hat. Having a child would make all of this impossible. So...I don't do it!

Just wanted to say all this